My dream: I'm out of this world, represented as a hotel in which I live. Every day I had many encounters with people. My constant companion in this life is a ferret, this Marderart, with sharp, pointed teeth, which is extremely agile and nimble. My ferret is very snappy and if I am in conversation with others, it bites too often and hurt the other. This bothers me and I try to prevent it. Somehow it does not work. All attempts fail in the ferret room locked up. So I bind to the ferret's mouth before we move out. But the Bandage does not hold. Then I decide to stay the ferrets and throw it somewhere into the bushes. From a distance I have to watch as it eats now innocent little animals. No, I can this vicious predator not simply let go of the world and take it back to me.
Now I ask in the spirit of my teacher, I can do, because I want to share the pain, which causes the ferret to an end. She says - of course, because this is our way - I could save it but simply by my breathing. I realize that this is an aspect of myself is, an unloved, outcast proportion that can be redeemed only by looking at him in my heart breathe.
But how can I invite this snappy little monster in my heart? It also bites me and caused me to stabbing pain. Well, that's the way I know. I take all my courage and begin to breathe deeply while I look at the ferret. Breathing is difficult and it hurts. But I keep going because I want this here once and for all times behind me. Suddenly I see how changing the ferret its shape: The coat disappeared, the mouth with sharp teeth lose its shape. I continued to breathe, Tears are running down my face. The body of the animal - it's not a ferret more - is smooth and soft, round head and a few large, childlike eyes look at me. A monster that is not here anymore. I continued to breathe. We look at each other. Almost looks like now the essence of a seal-baby, a Howler. And it calls for me, afraid of starvation, being left alone.
I now realize the nature of this system. It's like all my issues, my child, my creature. And I had failed, at least ignored for a long time. It has become a monster, because every aspect of calls at some point his right to be. When the time is ripe, and if we are mature, there will be confrontation. For me it is now taken out by some events in the outside, done in a dream. Otherwise would have perhaps held in meditation, in a return that would have been possible target. My soul takes me, whenever I'm ready, and that is our only one.
This baby seal, I can now enter into my heart. This being, I can hug, give him the love he deserves. I realize that had been hiding behind the mask of evil hurting, little monster, a proportion that I had not loved, but I had tried to hide or get rid of. That never works with the aspects that I know for a long time, and yet I've tried it again, because I was afraid.
After so integration is complete, I do not begrudge me rest, give myself credit, for it is something great happen, a release. I'm still a little more free and confident and I enjoy the peace that is spreading.
Note: This Ferret aspect has shown for the other does not malignant, but was manipulative. I will make the presentation here is not too complicated, but rather illustrate the mechanism of integration. Who wants to know, at what point it was in this case, I am speaking to you.
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